my head feels like it's about to explode i canr even type propertly

into tiny llltlle pieces tbh oe maybe my hands are jusy shaky asf

i should be sleeping tis almost 3 am

useless post i

kidna wanna ppost more

one day I’m like yey I love life

rest of the days I cry to sleep and think over every single fucked up thing that happened in my life

then I’m happy again because I ate some buldak noodles and drank monster

what is this? a post to let people that only follow me on newgrounds to know im still alive (if anyone cares) also I still haven’t gotten my pc fixed and it’s pissing me off since I can’t start on my projects !! fuck me why does every shitty little petty think happen to me

So, the last time I made a post about the RPG-maker thingy was on august. I've learned some basics, but school managed to catch up and i don't have time to focus on coding as much as i used to last year.

Therefor, I made a plan to work on programming during holidays when I don't have school.

There is 3 holidays i'll get before the summer break: christmas break, winter break and easter break. I have 2 projects im working on, one Ren'py game where you can pick different routes with WAY more endings and choices than my previous ones + an RPG maker game where obviously it'll be more interactive.

THEN; when it's finally summer break i'll have more time to work on the RPG game and hopefully half finish it.

I've already started making sprites and backgrounds for the Ren'py game, and started working on the story as well!

This time it'll focus more on school days, and different issues that occur there.

I don't wanna spoil too much, but each route and character will have different problems and issues that's caused by the school system + one of them is a killer and you have to figure out which one because why the fuck not

It'll both be a colorful pastel game, but also it depends on which route you pick, because some of them will have duller colors themes-

Here's an example of how the school will look like if you pick a character that has this color theme:

I finally got RPG Maker MV while it was still on sale !! cuz im way too broke to pay 80$ for that so 10$ is way better

I can branch of to more games now... so i'll just be learning how to use it before any new games come out

im actually quite impressed with how much stuff can be done with a simple coding engine like Renpy. at first i just made some dumb novels that im too embarrassed to share, but i also came across different code-inputs you can use to make a visual novel more interactive. like adding gallery + different endings for players to find + a simple fun dress up aspect to not make it too boring. also something else: i just used a POV to describe the main character, but there is also a way to make it possible for you to customize your own character. as well as adding different routes you can take and using the persistent codes to make it fun to unlock different CGIS.

i maybe will start to work on a bigger project during the summer break, as im too stressed with school right now and the upcoming exams, so the most free time i'll have is the summer break. it's a bit unmotivating though since im just one person and i have to draw every single aspect of the game on ibispaint, just drawing the sprites and backgrounds take days. plus i want my new game to have a better customized GUI, and not the plain automatic Renpy one. (i also realized you can customize the logo of the program as well !!)

basically this was a pointless rambling i just decided to throw out here but i think it'll be fun + painful to actually make. im still learning programming as im literally an amateur and still suck but that's how it is sometimes

Ok. I guess I’m making another one since I didn’t really expect a lot of people to play my last one ^^ it was supposed to just be a little test, to test out the dress up abilities that Renpy has but now i want to make a VN! So I decided to make a new game that’s longer, more clothes and has a better flowed ending ! So I decided on 4 weeks, with new clothes each week so that it’s more varied. (4 weeks obviously only being 4 days in the game)

im taking the concept of my last game and exploring more of it. So basically you’ll be dressing up a new girl for her killing spree, instead of me just reusing the assets since I don’t want to come off as lazy :(

here’s the new background, it’s definitely more yamikawaii/medicore inspired than the last one:

also decided to name the game “Blood Sugar” and the main character “Sugar Glaze” or “Glaze” for short. I’m sorry I really suck at naming stuff but this is what I came up with ! If you read this, thank you <3

hello. here's the background i made for my new dress up game:

(was hard and wonky since im still not used to making backgrounds)

idk this is more like a development blog ig-

easy to tell that its gonna be menhera/yamikawaii themed with references to menhera-chan herself :> right now im following a tutorial on how to make a dress up game on renpy, but i want to make a sort of an intro to the game before the dress up section even starts. idk how to do that so if i dont figure it out i guess i'll remove that part.

also after this thing gets finished i wanna make a new vn, this time with routes (maybe 5..? different routes with their own endings). the theme for it is basically ice cream cult (like the characters are based on ice cream flavors) and make it more polished than my previous one with better plot and player decision :>

here's the body base aswell:

obvs she has no eyes or a mouth, cause you're supposed to customize them. im really sorry for the big image sizes idk how to make the image smaller and its kind of obnoxious !

just kinda realized im literally sort of spamming the gurokawaii and yamikawaii tag. i think that just proves that those two "aesthetics" don't get enough recognition and that kinda makes me sad. but moreso on tumblr it's more popular, especially with menhera-chan and gloomy bear. also meaning that the tags are used more, while on here it's shortstacked. i sort of wanted to use newgrounds since on tumblr it is more restricted so i can't upload stuff that i want to there. idk what this post is even about but like im in class and im bored so i guess i just want the time to pass :( anyways just wanted gurokawaii and yamikawaii to be appreciated more. i think it revived some months ago, but like only for a little. but instead i sort of stayed to it and i did realize that my art did get more recognition when i started to seprate myself from just a basic anime fanart artist, but still nothing. like small baby doodles get thousands of likes while my drawings of 4 hours don't. think it has to do with it being guro but that's my style and i dont wanna change that.

while this account is strictly guro/yamikawii, my tumblr does include "normal' art for example one of strawberry shortcake and a lot of precure/mahou shojou art aswell. and i'd say im more inspired by jazmin bean (my username is literally saccharine named after their song lol) and older melanie martinez songs. but whatevs also another person i look up is fluttermew, since their games are my cup of guts so check em out too on itch.